What happened yesterday...

I am writing after few days just because I am confused about the way things are going in my life. I have been thinking about getting a new job because I am not satisfied with the present one. This is going on for over a month and my conscious mind thinks that I deserve a better job. When you see less deserving, less skillful and less qualified person becoming your team leader, it is obvious to get these thoughts. I did journalism with a lot of hopes attached with it, that one day I will do something which I will love and I will also get paid for it but the world seems very cruel when things don’t go your way.

I have been active on job portals more than at the current job to find something good. It has hardly been a year and I am having second thoughts on my career. I know that I shouldn’t get this impatient so early in my career but I could feel that I am struggling in finding an appropriate place to show my skills which is a genuine problem of this generation but more than that I am mentally suffering from it because of professional and personal situation. The firm wants me to do something which I don’t want and for which I didn’t sign up and whenever I see my mom’s face in a video call asking me, if I have got salary hike or not I feel numb but eventually find a way to divert her attention.

Let me share something interesting which may worry you if you are my well-wisher. Yesterday after waking up at 5:30 am and getting ready I went to an interview. The place was big and I prayed to get a chance there but It was not meant to be a nice day for me as I was thrown away gently in the first round itself. I was feeling dejected, miserable and broke while coming back because it was a nice job.

Then suddenly I thought let’s try somewhere else and convert this bad day into a good day. I opened the gallery on my phone and went to the screenshots column which I had taken last night and then called some random guy who was recruiting people for something I didn’t know. I went to the place he called. It took me 2 hours to reach the place he called me and when I entered it I saw many people waiting for something. Before I could understand anything I was asked to give my CV. I gave him the CV and then after 9 hours and 6 rounds I was selected and got the offer letter of 2,54,000. Because I was very feeling miserable I didn’t take the interview seriously and was very casual in approach but I somehow managed to impress them with the confidence and skill.

I asked them to give me a week to think about joining, and as of now, I don’t think I would be able to make my mind to join it. The job is in a reputed Multi-national BPO company where I have been assigned Senior Operational something designation. My work will be to answer queries and complaint of the Amazon customers through e-mail but that’s not the job I gave my 3 three years in college for. I know that I will not enjoy my outing in this firm and soon get out of it. This is just an example how I was unsure about what I was doing and what I wanted.